As you read this, I'm away on vacation to celebrate my son's 2-year birthday. We decided he wont necessarily care for a birthday celebration at this age, but we still want to have a weekend JUST for him because he is the joy of our lives. I'm writing this - away from my computer, away from work just for a moment to pause and reflect what this past 2 years of how motherhood stretchs me beyond my imagination.

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Motherhood didn't come naturally to me.
Motherhood changed everything for me.
Motherhood is the hardest thing I've ever faced in my life thus far.

I've always been a planner, highly organized, almost meticulous individual all my life. Everything I've ever set my heart on, I achieved them through hard work. I'm never afraid of working for the things I want. Unexpectedly, my child came "relatively" easy to me. When we wanted to start a family, I found out I was pregnant the following month.

It was 2007, and it was also the first year I became a full-time agent. Not something most people would recommend, on top of taking on my Broker's license and setting up shop on my own that crazy year.

Boomer came long that early October, after what was the hardest thing I did for my pregnancy - bed rest for 4 weeks. God knew how to get my attention. Otherwise, I was perfectly contented with being pregnant and working. I never made my pregnancy my disability. I was in my office by 7am and didn't stop by 5pm.

Boomer was delivered safely that October Friday in 2007. Most babies were supposed to have their bodies do certain things upon birth but Boomer was late. So, within 30 minutes, he was wheeled into NICU and that was when all hell broke loose. Never felt this feeling so strong - called the Mother's Instinct. I knew there was nothing wrong with my son and all he needed was to prove that he could feed on his own. He was a 5lb little boy born at 37 weeks. Even then (at a tender age of 1 day), I knew what my son was capable of. I showed the doctors that he could feed on his own. But once wasn't enough. I continued to show them that my son could do better than that. He fed on his own for a few more times. He was released to go home with me, at 2 days old.

As you read this post, I am celebrating my son's 2-year old birthday. At the same time, it also means it's a 2-year anniversary into this journey called Mommyhood. Caring for Boomer comes with challenges of all sorts. From gassiness, colic-ky, doubts of separation anxieties and screaming in the car seat each time he rides me. He had no choice but to follow me whether he enjoyed car rides or not. Mama's got to work. That means so does he. For 14 months, he was joined to my hip and he was perfectly contented with that arrangement. Not so much Mama.

When he turned 14-months old, he had his heaviest doubts of separation anxiety. That was also my beginning to change my views about my challenges. Instead of thinking they are difficult times, I chose to think it's my opportunity to grow, as a mother and as a person. It was not easy and sometimes, I swear I never want to walk that road again. (For those of you who has a difficult child, you know what I mean. Some children are just easier than others.) It took me a long time to tell myself I didn't do anything wrong and I did the best I could with what I had. Yes, working was solely my choice but at the same time, work or not, it wouldn't make a difference. My son chose to have a meltdown every time he wants something.

I never knew Love was a difficult thing until I became a Mother. Come to find out, love is patience more than anything.

He turns 2 year old soon. I can finally say it's slowly getting easier although I still have challenging days ahead. I choose to put him in school for half days and spend the rest of the afternoons with him and work. People tell me they grow up fast and yes, I don't ever want to miss an afternoon.

It's so amazing how one little child could take over a space and have a life turned upside down.

Motherhood grow me into a person I never thought I was.
Motherhood grow me into a person I never thought I would be.
Yet, I still want to say I look forward to what Motherhood could ever do to me.

Look at the photos and celebrate with us as to how far we've come:

At his 1-year old birthday

Mommyhood stretches you beyond your imagination.

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