My best friend for over 13 years has left me. Yesterday was his last day with me. I never in my wildest thoughts would have thought that I would feel this way. From the moment I heard that he was suffering from heart failure and only had less than one year left I have thought about the day he would pass on. I prayed that he would just go in his sleep however I did tell myself that I would not let him suffer, not let him be in pain. When the time came to make that decision I almost could not go through with it. Our last night together was very difficult, he hard a hard time breathing all night and could bearly stand. I held him all night and prayed that he would just pass on in his sleep. He was restless and breathing hard all night. I never closed my eyes. I just dept talking to him, praying for him and asking God to let it be peaceful. He was the greatest pet in the whole world and deserved at least that. I had to make the call to the VEt first thing in the morning. He was still very bad but had not passed on.
I brought him down to the Vets office knowing what I had to do. I made the decision during the night, he was in pain and very uncomfortable. The dog with the brighted eyes and greatest smile was sad and no longer had a sparkle in his eye. I stayed with him way beyond his last breath. I had a hard time leaving him. I am waiting for his ashes now. It is very lonely here. I have the greatest memories of Dempsey, my best friend who I will never forget, who will always have a place in my heart. He was my boy.
For anyone who has lost a pet or is facing the posibility of that loss you have my deepest sympathy. I have heard that "all dogs go to heaven" which gives me some relief. I try to tell myself that he is happy now, that he is not in pain anymore, that he is playful again. That we will be together again some day.