You are trying very hard to make me cry aren't you. Very very nicely done. The internet has done amazing things for people. Time will tell.

I love you Monika.

Wow that was unexpected.    What a beautiful letter.   My best friend growing up and still after 30 years was adopted and I know that everyday he wishes he knew "who" they were. 

Here's wishing you and your husband a wonderful holiday and hope all your wishes and dreams come true.

Monika - I really loved this post.  Both of my parents were adopted, and we have never found any of their birth parents to this day.  My father passed away about two years ago, and my mom has been making an effort to try to figure out more about her birth parents recently.  I hope that someone sees this post and makes contact with you, whether it be Jay's mother or a sibling.

I love you too Jay. Maybe someone in Germany will see this and recognize that name...maybe you have living relatives there...so many maybes...time will tell for sure.

Merry Christmas Jay :) 

Monika - I have tears in my eyes after reading this post and viewing your video.  Who knows, maybe someone, somehwere will recognize the names you've mentioned and come to you with answers.  Good luck.

What a great tribute to your honey's mom.  Very cool.  I wish you all the best!!

Ok, I'm crying in my wine. WOW, this is why I'm 100% against abortion. I hope you find your birth mother. I know this is a political issue and a personal decision, but what would your life have been like with out Jay?

Oh wow...Thank you Desiree. I was nervous posting this.

Jason...Thank you so much. Our hope is that someone does see it and contact us. I hope your mom finds what she is looking for as well. It's hard not knowing anything...especially health wise.

Nancy...I cried as soon as I hit the "post" button...I felt like I was baring my soul a little bit.  

Thanks Karen...hopefully it will work. 

Missy she would be great as always. Because, she has made me a better person.

I would hate to even imagine that Missy...which is why I really do thank her!

I wish you the best of luck finding Jay's birthmother.....but on a different note....Jay is HOT!!!  That highschool picture with the long hair and the side burns is a hoot!

Merry Christmas to you both and may destiny grant you the wish to meet Klara.

My mother placed a child for adoption when she was 16 and there wasn't a day that went by that she didn't think of her son, who she named Donnie.  We grew up wondering about Donnie and what he may be like but didn't hold much hope of ever finding him because of the nature of the adoption. It was 1963 and my Grandparents were intent on discretion.

About 5 years ago, I was playing around with my family tree (more like a tumbleweed) and decided to see if I could find Donnie.

I had him tracked down within 15 minutes because he had posted similar information as this letter on the internet . He posted that his name was now Greg and provided a phone number in which to reach him. 

I made contact with Greg and we bonded instantly. I am so thankful he wanted us to find him and it reassures my mother to know that he grew up so well.

Given how much time has passed, the birthparents might have passed on, but there could be some siblings who heard about your husband from a relative and cannot wait to meet him.  How cool would that be?

I really love this post.  Thanks for sharing.   

Moni, Should have warned me I would need a box of tissues to read this one.  I sincerely wish that you connect with her.  Best of Luck,

Merry Christmas Monika & Jay 

Thanks Ines...I love that high school picture of Jay <gg>

Amanda..Thank you so much for your heartfelt comment. It makes me feel better about posting this. The odds that Klara is still alive is pretty slim but hopefully someone a sibling maybe will find this post. We can only hope. Thank you so much Amanda!

WOW!  This is a real heart wrencher.  I also wish you the very best of success in finding your husband's Mother.  I'm believing for you.  Merry Christmas

Monika, it would be amazing if someone who knows her read this.  Now that would truly be a Christmas Miracle.

Thank you Laurie...Last night I had a dream that I wrote this post and when I woke up this morning I knew I had to write about it and have the nerve  to post it. I dunno why but I had to. Funny thing to dream about.

Monika - I certainly wish you much luck in finding Jay's mother (or relatives/siblings).  I used the internet to find my ex-husband's adoptive parents that he had had a tiff with and hadn't spoken to for 15 years.  It was quite a reunion.  It can happen - you just have to stay at it.

Merry Christmas to you both!  I hope your dreams come true. 

Wouldn't that be something George!!! Sure would be a Christmas Miracle.

Thank you Dallas and merry Christmas to you. 

Carol...Thank so much. We're hoping the power of the internet will work in our favor.

Hi Monika,

Awww...this is a beautiful letter! I hope this post reaches those connected to Jay, how cool that would be for Christmas! :)

George wouldn't it be funny if we found my relatives and they were Yankee fans. LOL

Monika - This was a beautiful post and it made me cry.

Hi Monika and Jay - wow, what a post this is, and I wish nothing more than for you to be able to find her, if she's able to be found.

Having known Jay for all these years, and you as well, he is all you wrote and then some.  What a kind, caring, compassionate, awesome man he is - one I'm proud to have called my friend all these years.  You're both wonderful people, and I truly hope this very personal post finds its way to someone who knows something that can help you find what you really want to find.  May the power of the Rain work for you!

Merry Christmas to you both, and my deepest thanks for the friendship we've shared for 14-15 years or so!  Long time, huh.....   ;-)

Ann

Moni, my heartfelt wish for you for Christmas is for Jay to find his birth mother. I can't imagine giving up a child and, being a mother I can't imagine the anguish she must have felt. It makes me hurt for her and I'm sure there has not been a June 3 go by without her thinking about him and wondering how he is.

What a beautiful tribute to Jay and your love shines through. You both are so lucky to have found each other.

The internet is a  wonderful thing and makes the world a lot smaller. I will pray that your wish is fulfilled.

Merry Christmas Moni and Jay! You guys are special.

Ann, it's closer to 17-18 years. 1989 or 1990 is my guess. Think back. LOL

What's funny is my birth middle name is "RAINER".

Rainer in the rain. LOL

Very touching -- I know in some way this message will reach Jay's birth mother!  May you have a joyous and simple holiday -- and best wishes to you both -- and your family!

Suzanne...Thanks it would be very cool!

Mariana...I cried as I wrote it. Lets hope it reaches far and wide and someone makes a connection to the name. 

Merry Christmas Ann...Thank you for being a true friend. Maybe this post will do the trick...after all these years that would be so awesome. I'm hoping the power of the Rain is really powerful. Thanks so much!!!

Linda...Thank you. I remember when I first met you on the AR...you thought our guys looked alike and when I saw a picture of your husband I asked you if your hubby was adopted...thinking they could have been brothers or something. Even then I was hoping....

Merry Christmas. 

Moni & Jay,

First I'd like to thank you for sharing such an important and personal detail of your lives with us.  If it's very important to you to find your birth mother, I wish you much luck.  If you never do, I'm happy that you've found something so many never do and that's a soul mate like Moni.  You are both so lucky to have each other but then I'm sure you didn't need me to tell you that.  I love that you are thanking Jay's mother for giving him to you because that's something I say to Bob's mother all the time.  I think we're both very lucky.  We wish you much luck in finding whatever fills your dreams.  Have a very Merry Christmas! 

Monika, I wish I was good at scanning pictures and putting them on the internet. Even without the facial hair they look alike! It's spooky in a way. Jay's senior picture looks like Mike's. They even have the same chin. I'll see if my son can figure out how to do it and I'll send them to you. You'll be amazed!

Thanks Joan. I hope for Jay's sake that you are correct. Happy holidays to you!!!

Lisa...How sweet! If it's not meant to be that will be okay for us. The odds that she is alive is slim but I guess we simply don't know. Merry Christmas to you and Bob..I hope it's a great one.

Linda...Now are you sure your hubby is not adopted? Or that a close relative was in Germany during that time frame?

He's not adopted, but his Dad was in the service. I'll do some digging around and see what I can come up with. I know he was an orthopedic surgeon after the service, but I need to find out if he was in Germany in the early 50's ....ok..MID 50's  LOL

Wouldn't it be wild??

Moni you are a beautiful lady, I knew that but this is the icing on the cake. Of course I cried like everyone else. The two of you are special together and an inspiration

Probably 1953...late summer or fall??? Jay was born in June of 54 so count back. LOL yeah that would be incredible. Maybe even a relative...a cousin?  Who knows for sure but I bet the man doesn't even know.

Carole....Thank you so much. You warmed my heart! I am so lucky and just wish I could tell her so...

I mean I'll really have to dig...Mike was only 9 when his Dad died, so I'll have to see if he knows if he was in Europe at that time. Both his parents are gone but I'll see what I can find out. Doesn't hurt to check!

Monika,

This is a very heartwarming post. I can tell that you love your husband very much and I hope beyond hope that you are able to locate his birth mother. I understand how it feels to have that connection with someone whom you've never met, always wondering if maybe, just maybe, you might meet them someday. You never know what can happen.

Jay that would finally explain why I like you. Yep that would make perfect sense ........ LOL

What a wonderful post to end my week on. You clearly love your man and are not afraid to tell the world about it. As for finding his bio mom, well it is Christmas so who knows what might happen. Good luck and a very merry Christmas to you and your family.

Monika~ Jay has been tremendously blessed in life, especially with you.  That's a beautiful tribute.  I really loved the high school pictures, what a head of hair! 

Monika, this is an absolutely beautiful post.  I have a feeling you will follow it up with another one telling us a very happy reconciliation story.  I just know it.

God bless you, Jay, and the love you have for each other.

Merry Christmas!

<<sniff, sniff>>

Linda...I'm sorry to hear that your father in law passed away especially when Mike was only 9 years old. strange things have been known to happen so you just never really know.

Andrew...Thank you. Your words are touching.  Sounds like you're looking as well and I wish for you much success in your endeavor. Maybe the power of Google will help us somehow.

George...LOL!!!! 

Simon...Yeah I do love him :) Thank you! 

Lisa...LOL...The poor guy...he hates looking at that picture. Probably because of all the hair. Thanks so much for stopping by.

Maggie... I hope you are right as I would love to write that post! Thank you Maggie...I know you understand great love and the lengths one would go for it. This post was a result of a dream too Maggie...

Monika.... Very nicely done... Hope you can find the connection to Jay's family history...   And I'm sure Jay will agree whether his biological parents are found or not this was the ultimate Christmas gift... the thought really counts!

Jay - yep, you're right.....I put my thinking cap on and it was back then that we first became friends. 

Monika and Jay - you two share a very special love and deep friendship with each other, and I always love being around you.  You make me laugh and smile with the way you are with each other.  You very simply were meant to be together.  And I hope you find some good news with this post - the world is out there and hopefully so is someone who can put these pieces together for you.

Merry Christmas to you both - you are gifts to each other, no matter what.....

Hugs to you both!
Ann

Really sweet Monica. Who knows...maybe just maybe you will get a contact from this from one of Jay's family. That would be an awesome Christmas presnt. 

Love the video show. Jay's lookin' good!!!!

Monica, What a beautiful tribute to Jay. Wonderful way to show appreciation. Well written and I am flagging it for a  feature!

Monika...

This is just awesome. I, like everyone else here, hope that this letter brings results.

That would just be too cool for words :)

TLW...ROAR!

Monika, this is a beautiful post, and I imagine there are many birth parents reading this and feeling less sad about difficult decisions they had to make - often as teenagers in the days before "open" adoptions.   And maybe you are helping to start them on a path to finding the son or daughter who was a gift to another family.  

Hi Dan...We're not expecting much but boy it would be nice if it found it's way to her somehow. Thank you for commenting.

Ann...Your words are so touching, thank you for sharing them with me. Funny but Jay and I have always called each other our best friends.  I'm hoping the word reaches the right person but if not thats okay too because we do have each other...and awesome friends like you and Bear. Merry Christmas Ann and Thank you!

Margaret...Thank you so much! I enjoyed chatting with you today very much and hope to catch your radio show tomorrow! 

Bryant...LOL yeah Jay was a little charmer...still is too :) 

TLW...Thank you so much! results would be to cool for words...but I'd just have to post it if it happened.

Thank you so much No name, I appreciate your comment and hope that it does bring a little sense of peace to someone who needs it at this time. I love how you put it a "gift to another family"...that is exactly what Jay was...a special gift.  

Happy Holidays 

Monica, you know I walked in his mother's shoes.  What can I say. 

My son and I both decided just to be "findable" - funny, that's a thought and word we both had - and, when the timing was right, we did find each other.  I hope my "success story" gave you some positive vibes for writing this.  That's what happened when one of my clients told me how close she is now to her grown daughter and her grandchildren.  Since then, I've discovered two other success stories in my own circle of friends.  None of the negative stuff you read online in those dreadful adoption forums.

Margaret...I remember reading your story a while back and talking to Jay about it. We've tried searching before but never thought about blogging about it. I'm hoping that the power of AR and google might help.  Thank you Margaret...hopefully we'll have a success story to share someday soon.

Monika - What a great tribute to Jay. As you know I got to meet Jay this morning and it was a pleasure. He started to fill me in on a little bit of what you wrote but now I have the full scoop. What a miracle it would be if his mom ever did read this. Here is to hoping a wish comes true!

Monika, of all the adoption sites, Adoption.com is the most realistic - a good mix of all parties writing, and both positive and negative stories (as opposed to all negative).  Their reunion registry is where my son and I found each other - we both had been there 3 years, but never made the connection because of some inconsistencies (not intentional, in our case).  Keep in mind that sometimes people bent the truth in those days to "protect" parents and children - some deliberate tinkering with dates and places occurred, so be sure to read between the lines.

Hi Bill. thanks for taking the time out of your busy schedule to meet with my brother and me today. I enjoyed our visit even if my brother was 20 minutes late, it gave us time to chat.

Looking forward to hearing from you by the end of next week. Merry Christmas to you and your family.

Monika - What a lovely post.  <snif>  I'm soooo glad I had the opportunity to meet you in person.  You are one outstanding lady!

Monika, my realtor and friend forwarded your letter to me.  I want to send my thoughts as I am a birth mother who placed her daughter for adoption in 1968.  I am so blessed to have reunited with her in 1996 and I am now the proud grandma of twin granddaughters.  She is my only child.  Our relationship continues to grow and blossom and I am so thankful to have these years with her and my granddaughters.  I want to send a huge thanks to you  for being so aware of the feelings of birthmothers.  We were young women "in trouble" and wanting to keep our babies.  Ultimately, we were made to feel desparate  and tainted,  due to the influence of society at that time.  I,  unfortunately,  did not have support from my family, the birth father, nor friends to keep my daughter.  I was told I would have to place her for adoption in order not to shame my family's name.  While I hated that I had to relinquish my daughter,  I now choose to believe it had to happen so that I could give her adopted family this gift of life.  I always believed that I would reunite with her one day, even tho I was told to get on with my life and act like it had never happened.  You and your husband are very blessed to have your love for each other and I only hope and pray his birthmother will find your message.  After much soul searching and counseling I have finally been able to accept that I indeed made a huge sacrafice to relinquish my child.  I very much  appreciate the fact that you are willing to convey this to his birthmother who probably wonders daily, if not hourly, is her child safe and happy.  May she always be blessed for her sacrifice but remain at peace knowing he has been loved.               

Bill...Thank you so much for stopping by and Thank you for taking the time to meet with Jay today. I know it's a busy time of year. 

Margaret...I've thought about that a bit. Thinking the names could be wrong or even the date. It's hard because the documents we have, all have been translated. The wording is very strange...I've asked a few people if they've ever seen wording like that in adoption papers before and no one has. Of course with everything being in an other country just makes it harder.

Thank you Linda  :)

Birth mother...I am so happy for you. That you found your daughter and now have a relationship with her and granddaughters as well. That must be so special!

It pains me to think that Jay's BM might be wondering or looking for him. She would be much older if she is still alive. I wanted her to know somehow...what a wonderful person he is and that he is not alone and that he is loved. It would give me some peace to know that if I were her.  I wanted to thank her because her actions that day...made it possible for him to meet me.

It was a sacrifice and I'm glad you've been able to come to terms with it.  I hope you're smiling as you read this because I am...Thank you for taking the time to visit my post and share your story with me. It makes us more determined and makes me glad that I decided to post this.

Exciting news....

Using the search term "bamberg germany adoption" in google this post shows up on the 1st page!!! I think that's great! Maybe someone over there will see it!

Monika, this was a powerful post.  God is able to create tremendous good out of all kinds of different situations.  This was very moving.  Thank you for sharing.  Blessings to you for the Christmas Season.  I'm glad I stopped by to read this.

Lola...Thank you so much for stopping by and reading my post.  There has been so much good already and if nothing further comes from this...that will be okay. Thank you Lola and Merry Christmas.

Monika - That's so wonderful! You showed up on the first page! Wow....I just know something good's going to come out of this.

Good morning Linda. That would be cool!!!!

Happy Holidays :) 

Moni,

I am blown away by this heartfelt post. i am only sorry I didn't read it sooner. I always wondered how Jay could find his birth mother but you have found the perfect medium here. I pray someone with relatives in Germany send this post along to them and they can circulate it to their friends, etc. They say if you talk to 6 people, you can make a connection with anyone in the world. Jay I will pray God helps you make this important connection.

Judy it looks like we may have found a telephone number with my birth mothers first name and last name. Monika is German as you well know and she has relatives in Germany who may also be able help.

Monika, this is such a touching letter, it's a letter any mother would be very happy to receive in this situation, and any husband would be proud to have his wife write about him. With out even meeting him I can tell from this letter that Jay is a very fine person. I hope that you get some kind of acknowledgement from this. This is the season when miracles happen. Happy Holiday to your family.

Hi Larry...Thank you so much. Merry Christmas to you and your family as well and maybe a small miracle will happen for us this holiday season.

Monika-Wow, you are truly a remarkable woman!  I can't even express my thoughts here except to say...I truly understand how you both feel...I feel this way myself.  Happy Holidays to you both...I do believe it can happen!

Monika and Jay - I included this post in this week's Week in Review.  It deserves to be there, and I'm hoping with the additional exposure you just might get some kind of lead that will help you in your search.

Christmas hugs to you both!
Ann

Monika-many thoughts are racing through my head......1) have you thought of getting a German translation for this 2) If you want I can send it to a friend, and ask them to translate   3)  Many people in Germany and the old countries live for family....they know who moved where, and when, etc. so even if Jays birth-mother has passed on, then there might be other family or friends....what area is Bamberg in...the North, South ????

My son lived in Germany and graduated from high school there.......I hope someone reads this, I do know that an old friend in Romania found me after 10 years of trying from my Active Rain blog......so if Romanians are reading this, then Germans are too :) 

This was a beautiful letter........Very nicely done, and so heartfelt.......I just e-mailed it overseas to see if there is somewhere in Germany to Post it.

Midori...Thank you. I understand how you feel.  Happy Holidays and yes something good can happen.

Ann...Thanks so much for the mention! That is awesome, the more exposure we can get the better it is for us.

 I know a few people have told me that they flagged this for a feature but I figured the AR gods felt it way too off topic to feature so I really appreciate the additional exposure.  Merry Christmas Ann.

Kathy...Thank you but we do have a transcript, actually done in Germany at the time of the adoption because Jays parents could not speak German.  The document loses something in the translation though. It is a pretty strict "contract" and we really don't know if the name and place mentioned are correct. Hope so because it is really all we have to go on.

I think Bamberg is in the south part...but I'm not sure. Thank you so much for passing this on...maybe just maybe...it will fall into the right hands.

Merry Christmas 

Monika,

What a wonderful heartfelt post! I can't begin to cut through the myriad of emotions here. Any words of consolation would surely fall short of comfort! I will keep this situation in my prayers...in the end, we are all adopted children of God...we are all here on loan to our parents, adopted or natural!!! Thanks,   Fran

P.S. I just had a thought...if you follow up, try obtaining 'church' records...churches even now, but especially back then, kept accurate records!

Thank you so much Fran...We do know the church name as Jay was in a church orphanage. If we lived in Germany or could spend time there investigating it would much easier. Doing leg work from afar and dealing with the language barriers is difficult. We're hoping that this post will be found and someone will know of her or of her family. Your words are very touching  "we are all adopted children of God" thank you for sharing them!

Merry Christmas Fran. 

Monika, I have not read all the comments, it's Christmas Eve Day and I am late! However, I am bookmarking this post! I actually got chills reading it!  I have done a lot of genealogy through the years and I will definitely do some research after the Holidays. Still, I hope that somehow, though the coincidence of life, either she or someone who knows her will stumble across this post. It may take awhile, but as Albert Einstein said "Anything and everything is possible"! 

Oh, and I guess he really is a Rainer!

Moni & Jay - A most blessed Christmas to you both. I love you and even more important God loves you and this is important to Him. I know you will find someone who knows your Mother through this post.

You're right, Monika - I'm sitting here crying. I hope Jay's mother does find this and read it - and know that she is loved.