I remember growing up and some of all the little memories, events, sights and sounds that accompany it. The good stuff just flows and speaks for itself while the not so good leaves a trail of tears and regret and even taunts us by coming before us again & again in memory/thought for a type of review. You see it comes again because of a certain reason. It is not to haunt you but for you to be rid of it
HOW TO BE RID OF IT?
Don't resent it as it makes it appearance and passes by for a review. Just watch it and in some instances a change can be brought about giving it a different ending. Then, it leaves either because we changed it or it diminishes in strength. Good riddance is all I can say
KIDS PICKING ON KIDS
I remember seeing & hearing bullies pick on others and even myself and not being able to do anything about it at that time. That time was me being a kid, who just didn't know what to do but wanted to do something. When bullies made their way toward me, I had no plan but to just get through it all
I AM GLAD IT WASN'T ME?
Sometimes I was relieved when they found someone else. In that moment, you are just glad it is not you and you give no thought to the poor guy who is now taking your place. It never enters your mind but instead, you have a type of gladness-relief that you are not the one
THE ONE WHO IT WAS?
Well they are thinking why does it have to be me and they suffer through it. Well, I was that person but being glad it was happening to someone else never sat well with me ever. At some point, I wanted all that to go away for everyone.
TWO BEATING UP ON ONE
I remember seeing two boys beat up on another and just watching and doing nothing. The boy who got beaten said to me after-wards: Thanks a lot as he wiped away his anguish and fear while trying to recover himself. He expected me to help him and I did not. That would never happen today with me.
NOT A HELPLESS KID ANYMORE
When I got older, that little kid who didn't know, who was scared and ignorant grew in stature and deed and was no longer plagued by injustice, unfair advantages or being discriminated for no apparent reason. Oh the sting of the event makes itself known, but it has no power over me like it once did
I KNOW YOU ARE OUT THERE
At some point in my life, I discovered that sticking up for others was a worthy & right thing to do when presented in a certain way meaning it comes up on my radar, I am there & I have the ability to do something about it. I don't look for these things to stand for but I have an awareness that they exist
THE ONE WHO CANNOT
Now, I speak up for those that cannot speak for themselves. I don't care how old they are, what gender, or if they are right or wrong but instead to promote a safety, fairness and meaningful exchange to resolve situation and move on. There is no reason why something cannot be settled amicably
FEAR IS THE WILD CARD
People handle fear differently. Unfortunately, there are individuals who smell and sniff out the fear in others just like an animal can sense fear in humans. What happens then is that someone who is scared without knowing summons even more problems just by being scared. They know no other way
RELAX AND CALM DOWN
If I see a person being shamed, humiliated or treated unfair in a random way that is to say that it is out of line and that something has to be done, I speak up and in many cases interact and intercede. Most of the time what is needed is someone to remain objective and walk everyone through the episode
REGRET AND GUILT
I haven't had too many physical threats that have gone full cycle i.e where blows have been exchanged but they are out there and it takes a cool head and focus to work through it. In every altercation that involved harm, it was regrettable and avoidable as everyone agrees to after-wards.
My do over is simply this. I wont leave someone behind that needs a helping hand if it meets my criteria in the moment. I will be that person that I wished was there when I was a youngster or in need of help and there wasn't anyone. That is a hard way to learn & navigate through life being alone & without help