If it was, my heart goes out to you.
I lost one of my best friends, my mom 16 years ago, she died the end of May in 1992.
She was one of the first people I would call when something good or bad happened to me.
A lot of water under the bridge in 16 years. I would hope that she would be proud of me.
I learned a lot from my mom. Not just the everyday stuff. She knew people well.
She was kind, knew how to talk to anyone. She had a great sense of humor. She had a great temper.
I got some of her traits, missed on the temper.
The first year after she died was painful. I would reach for the phone to call her then hang up.
The first birthday of mine without her call, the first Christmas (Every Holiday) you still think about her when shopping for gifts.
Her first birthday not here and the first Mother's day. You made it! You cried some, I hope you laughed some too, thinking about her, telling stories. She would want that.
I will not tell you it gets easier. It does get different, softer somehow as the happy memories seem to stay more than the sad ones.
I started a tradition after my mother died, I have my sister and brothers over with their families for dinner on Mother's day. One of my brothers stopped coming a couple of years ago and my other brother and his family didn't make it this year. More sad thoughts, sorry.
This is about you who lost your mom this year. Your mom was a gift, for as long as you had her. There will always be a part of her in you. Don't feel guilty if you weren't always the perfect child. I wasn't, just ask my sister :). Parents and children are all human.
She knew you loved her. Mother's always know more than anyone about us.
All the best!
Kevin
Sorry for your loss, Kevin. My Grandmother passed on Mother's Day 9 years ago. It's still pretty hard for my Mom. We still mostly talk about Gram when I call to wish her a Happy Mother's Day.