I want to be more. I want to truly shine. My desire for refinement inspires me to brave the treacherous journey into the frontiers of my dark interior. The ways in which unknown possibilities haunt, illuminate and seduce me have evoked a mental travel diary of my hopes and desires - a vision if you will. The cinnamon toast of my existence cries out for new experiences. A new direction… spiritual evolution.
So I’ve been rethinking my life in small and large ways, painful but ultimately fruitful. What journey do we undertake that does not bring to light unwanted stowaways – long ignored out of habit? Owning up to the dead ends in our private lives, our business approach – even our relationship with ourselves – is the ultimate enlightenment. Yet we face our demons reluctantly. I certainly do. I realize that unless I undress my flaws, see them for exactly what they are - I’ll never dance at the edge – find no reason to push the envelope.
If only the path were easier. Risk free. We all want the sure thing. But the payoff truly comes in the taking of risks. A single roll of the dice can change our lives in ways we might never dream possible. Even our dreams have boundaries. So why not throw out our limitations and pre-conceptions? Take that chance?
Wouldn’t it be great if we could just stop things at pivotal moments, stand back, and write our own ending? How would it be different? What price would we pay for safety?
We have to risk something. We just do.
I am aware that I’ve made mistakes in this life. Big ones and I own them. But they are mine because taking chances not only nets terrific results and fantastic rewards, but miscalculations and losses as well. Because of this, and this alone – my ultimate gains taste even sweeter.
I am not here on this earth as a mere visitor. I am not content to be seated in the audience either. I want to be the star. So I’ll gather my courage and unleash my adventuresome spirit. I’ll take my chances. Because I know exactly what I want. And simply by making the effort, I will shine brighter.
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Jen, You are a star. Whatever you want in life it is there for the taking, don't ever be afraid, you have many people that love you.