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Grieving...then closure.

This past week has been one of the longest weeks that I've ever had. I haven't been around much.

You see....it goes like this...I've been grieving. A few days ago I posted a small little memorial. I didn't allow anyone to comment because I didn't think it was the right thing to do and my only intentions were to have good memories of my best friend and thought it would help with the loss and sadness I'm experiencing right now.

Last Monday October 6th 2008 I had to make one of the most difficult decisions I've ever made. I had to put my dog Roscoe to sleep.

Roscoe was 17 yrs old and up until about a year and a half ago ....he was virtually healthy his whole life. Except for a few minor ailments he only went under the knife once or twice.

We knew he was having some internal problems but nothing I couldn't handle by making some adjustments in his schedule. Around 8 months ago I took him to the vet and they mentioned that we do a geriatric test since he was up there in years and also to change his diet to senior food. Up until then I didn't even realize it but he was really old. But over the next few months he started to have trouble walking straight and he was getting cataracts so we could no longer let him go out on our patio alone or he might fall into our pool. But I still managed to keep him eating and he was still pretty active so we weren't thinking anything was changing.

By the time June rolled around I noticed that he wasn't barking....normally he would bark so much it made my ear drums explode but he just stopped and I was only able to get him to bark a few more times. Eventually he was sleeping more and I noticed he was losing his muscularity in his hips so I became concerned. He had stomach ache about two weeks earlier and he lost a little weight and I just kept giving him some medicine and feeding him and eventually he recovered and gained his weight back and a little more. But last Saturday he started to have trouble walking on his left leg. The next morning my wife woke up about 6 am and took him out as she always does but I heard her calling me and when I came out to see what was going on she was in tears and she said "I need your help...he can't walk".

By the afternoon I was back at the vets office and I was asking him if he thought Roscoe was suffering at this point...he said " Neal...no I don't think he is suffering in your hands but if you asked me to put him down...I wouldn't argue with you but it's your decision.... I just want you to know that sometimes we have people who only want to put their pets down because they are moving and can't take them or the pet becomes out of hand and the people get angry at me for refusing to do it but in this case...it's a lot different."

We went home...gave him a few doses of a light aspirin to help ease the pain but in the end he started to whimper if we had to take him out. He couldn't stand unless we helped him and I started to cry.

I'm not the type to cry in public but I knew at that moment that he needed.......he wanted us......to....do it.

Monday morning I had an appointment that was impossible to change and my wife said she would take him. Before I left I walked over to our bed and he was laying down. I started to pet him...talk to him and while I was in tears....I started to tell him he was a good boy and that I loved him and was going to miss him terribly. He then kissed my hand and I looked into his eyes and knew that he was telling me it was alright and he was ready. I drove home after my meeting to an empty house and about 30 minutes later my wife came home.....alone.

It was over....Roscoe was gone and we both started to cry. My wife reminded me that we gave him a great life and as much as it sucks and how painful it will be it was better that we didn't wait until it got worse. We both thought he would just get better just like he always did. But he didn't.....he couldn't jump...run...play....bark....growl...cry. His mind wanted to but his body wouldn't allow him to. Even on the day he passed .....he was still eating his food and was as hungry and thirsty as he always was.

I wish I could have done more and I wish I knew how he was really feeling inside. It's very hard for some people to understand the type of bond I had with a pet that's been with me for almost as long as I've been married. We remember how much research we did and how long we traveled to get him.

How do you understand unconditional love? I know it will be hard but I'll be ok.

I guess I took his age a little for granted... and my Father in law said it best..."How old was Roscoe? I thought he was around forever"

The photo above was back in the 1990's...the way we prefer to remember him when he was vibrant and full of life.

I just want to thank those who sent me many kind emails. I'm still having a hard time getting used to not seeing him... but every days gets a little better. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to get another pet and I'll never forget Roscoe...my dog...my friend.

Rest in Peace Roscoe 1991-2008

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OCT

2008

I am so sorry to hear, I was going to comment the other day but felt you needed space!

Neal~ I am so sorry about you losing Roscoe. I know he was your best friend. I have read your posts about him before and know how much you loved him. I am so sorry and can relate to your pain. We had to do the same thing for "Daisy" our Golden Retriever and we still to this day grieve over her, but it does eventually get easier, but we never stop missing her ........

Sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to fathom the day that I will say goodbye to my faithful companion. I think God gave us dogs just to get a glimpse of his unconditional love, loyalty, and faithfulness.

Neal, I am so sorry about Roscoe! It's really tough to see your buddy get old and frail. Big hugs to you and your wife!

Well, being a dog lover... your heartfelt post really grabbed me... God bless you -- and Roscoe had a great family.. very lucky dog!

Neal,

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry to hear about Roscoe. You post is very touching, you can tell how much you loved that little guy. I think the best thing you was "he was virtually healthy his whole life..." That was a blessing.

Neal, I am so so very sorry to hear about Roscoe. I read about him in one of your earlier blogs and know how very much you love him. I lost my beloved Ben in June and I still grieve for him and miss him every day. I know there is nothing anyone can possibly say to comfort you, just know that others are thinking about you and sympathize with your loss.

Hi Neal,

I am sorry about your dog Roscoe. My dog Nemo died too not sure how but it was a pretty big blow. Take care.

Patrick

They're not just pets, they are members of our families, and I'm sorry to hear about Roscoe. Clearly he was loved and was a valued member of your family. Sounds like he had a wonderful life with you, which is a blessing that many dogs don't ever get to realize.

We went through this 2 years ago...Unless you have a pet, you don't understand. It really is a member of your family. We had a WEst Highland terrier, which are very popular in tv commercials. Little Cesaers dog food has a commercial with them and the caption is "I promise to be there when you wake up", and everytime I see it I could cry....only time will heal.....

Hi Neal Add my smpathy in the loss of your pet. I went through that I think we take it so hard because they are indeed like family and our Best fRIEND How many people can we say love us unconditionally . I still haven't replaced my pet Lady after 16 years. It is too tough to let them go. I hope the well wishes help you to get through the gried.

Neal - My heart goes out to you... I'm crying too. I know that you will miss your trusted friend and companion. I'm sure that he had an amazing life with you and loved you as much as you loved him (it's hard to type through the tears). He will always be with you.. thank you for sharing the "softer side" of Neal Bloom.

Neal - wow, I saw your post before but this brought tears to my eyes. Having been through this sort of thing before several times, I undertsand what you are dealing with. It is so incredibly hard. My thoughts are with you. Time will help.

Jeff

Neal, I know EXACTLY how you feel about Roscoe. It has happened to me with our dogs. Roscoe lived an incredibly long life at 17. Never let anyone say they are not part of your family. They are. And the unconditional love is amazing. Keep all the good memories in your heart.

Neal, I know how you feel. We had to do the same for our little Bandit. It was so hard but ultimately he was in pain and we knew we could not allow that to continue. Afterwards,everyone said get a puppy..but we never did. It's been 4 years and we still miss him.

As my 3 little bdags are barking at this moment I will not yell at them to hush. Thanks you for your great post and wonderful pove of your BUDDY.

Neal - I'm so sorry about Roscoe. You gave him a wonderful life, he knows that, what a very lucky dog and how wonderful you had him for so many years. I know you will miss him. Hugs to you and your wife.

There is nothing harder than making that kind of decision...why this day, why not tomorrow, maybe he'll get better, this might just be a blip on the screen, he doesn't seem so bad right now. I have had all of these go through my head when I have had to put my pets down. To this day, I still question myself on some of them. I hope you find peace with your decision and know that Rosoe is chasing squirrels up in heaven and waiting for you!

Dear Neal and Mrs. Bloom: It is hard to lose a pet when we have come to think of them as family and are used to their always being there. I am so sorry for your loss. You have written a great tribute to your pet and one that many other people can relate to. It is clear how much Roscoe meant to you, and will continue to mean to you - your memories of him will be long remembered.

Neal, You did the right thing. Many of us have been where you are now, and it would have been selfish to keep a dog around who is in pain. Be grateful for what Roscoe gave you and your wife all these years, I'm sure he was.

You're story sounds all too familiar. Last year we lost our Pomeranian Sassy to congestive heart failure. She was 16.

You know what I've heard about dogs that live way beyond their life expectancy? It is the love and care of their family that has them live so long. It is a blessing to have a dog that gives you such joy and unconditional love like that. Remember that Roscoe liked to see you happy.

We were with Sassy as she went to sleep. We stroked her and hugged her until she was gone. That was a long hard ride home from the animal hospital. She brought so much to our lives. Just as Roscoe did to yours. This poem is about them...

Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

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Neal, made me cry too. I had to put down my dog when I was 18 yrs old and she had been with me since I could barely walk. That was really hard. Still miss her 20 yrs later. ~Rita

Neal- I am crying too. I had to put my Cleo to sleep last November and it was the solice and support of people here on Active Rain that got me through my grief process faster and with less pain. I am sorry for your loss.

All I can say is that you gave Roscoe the best life that you possibly could. No regrets! You have some beautiful memories of your cherished pup, and those will be with you forever!

Neil, I am thankful that I have never had to go through this with a pet, so I can't say that I understand because I don't. What I do understand is that your hurting, and that I have experienced. Grieve for now, for you have a lot of time to rejoice in all the great memories that you have of Roscoe.

Rob and Jeannie posted exactly what I was going to Neal. Rainbow Bridge is what someone sent me when we lost a family member as you have. We are right here for ya buddy, though words and comments can never replace the pain in your heart, you are surrounded by friends and other family who love ya and care my man, so lean on your friends right now to fill that hole in the heart ok? I am really sorry about your loss.

Neal I am with you man. I have two of six dogs now that are seniors. One is 15 the other 14. The 14 year old we rescued last year because he had been abused and returned to the greyhound rescue that they adopted him from 9 years ago. He is healthy now considering but, is not well.

Neal, having lost more than one of these best friends in my life, I know exactly how you are feeling - my dogs were not dogs, they were children, friends, confidants, compantions.

My heart goes out to you.

Neal, I'm sorry to hear about Roscoe. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your wife. Losing a member of the family is always hard.

Neal, I remember when you first wrote about Roscoe and the grief I was going through after going through the same thing with two of my babies. You inspired a post of mine that is still on the bulletin board of our local animal shelter. We never forget those we love, but hopefully at some point we bring more love into our lives. You & your wife are in my thoughts and prayers.

Neal,

So sorry to hear about your beloved best friend. I have lost two dogs in my life and know that each was special in his way. In this process though it prepared me for situations that have been difficult. They always will live on in our memories so be thankful for all those moments.

Neal-those of us who have and love pets know how difficult the decision is to ease the suffering of one our beloved pets. It isn't an easy decision but it is always the right one. You always have to remember the 17 wonderful years that you had with Roscoe and not dwell on the passing.

You remind where the saying "Man's best friend" comes from. My thoughts are with you Neal.

Neal ~ Our pets let us know when it is time. I am sorry to hear that Roscoe is not with you, but I know that you and your wife share many warm memories. It is very difficult to lose a pet, they ARE family! My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Neal,

I see someone already told you about "Rainbow Bridge" I received it from my dog sitter after we lost our long haired Chifuahua, Luca. He had diabetes and we don't know why, he went into convulsions and had seizures during the night and the vet couldn't do anything to save him. We had to put him to sleep and we cried for days. It isn't even how long you have the wonderful "little innocents" (animals) they are part of your life and they give so much love no one knows unless they have been through it themselves. My heart goes out to you and your wife. Roscoe knows you loved him and that you didn't want to put him to sleep, but had to out of love and kindness. God bless you and you will see Roscoe again, when you go home.

oh gosh. I am balling over here. I feel for you & am so sorry to hear about Roscoe & know your heart aches for him. They are such good, kind & sincere friends. I have a yorkie who has been with me since 1995, his name is Bailey, he has been my "faithful little man" all these years and it will break my heart when he is gone. I am so sorry for your loss of Roscoe but he is not in any pain anymore.

Neal - your touching words bring tears to my eyes and it is obvious that you and your wife gave Roscoe a wonderful life. It is so hard to say goodbye. We had to put down our cat a few years ago after she was hit by a car. It was so sad even now to think about. What a great photo and definitely our pets ARE members of our family.

Neal I am so sorry for your lost, he has been with you so long, and was an important part of your family therefore it will take time to adjust to his absence. Sounds like you have some very fun memories.

Neal, we are so very sorry for your loss. Our dog Ashley was a crazy Jack Russell that lived to be 18 and we had to make the same decision for the same reason that you did.

Our hearts our with you.

Neal...

I think we get close to our pets because they depend on us every day. We have to make sure they're fed and loved, and they give so much love and joy back.

Unfortunately, they don't live as long as us and I have faced the same difficult decision. It's the last act of kindness that we can do for them.

Neal, I am so sorry to hear about you losing Roscoe. What a special 17 years you shared your lives with each other. I have got to admit I don't think I have ever heard of having 17 years. All animal lovers know that it is really tuff at the end. I have went through this three times and it is SO HARD... but time does help..

What a wonderful tribute you wrote about Roscoe. Thank you for having the courage to share.

Neal, I could not help but cry after reading this. I can so relate to your pain. Know in your heart that you did the right thing and he will be waiting for you over the bridge. He will come running to you as if he were a puppy all over again. I always have believed that our pets will be reuinted with us in Eternity and that is what makes it Heaven. I am so sorry that you had to go through that. We pet lovers will go through it a few more times before we just cannot anymore. Give yourself time to heal and remember, it is o.k. to cry. I send you a cyber hug from your Re/Max Sister. Call me if you need to talk.

Neal, 17 years is a great amount of time to spend with your wonderful dog. Losing a pet is very difficult because they are an integral part of the family but just don't live as long as the rest of us. I lost a dog and a cat a couple of years ago and its still hard.

Neal, it is so difficult to have to "put down" your pet. I had to do that once many years ago - my children's pet. It was awful.

BTW? I like your new photo. ;-)

I have gone through this a few times and no matter how sick they are I think I could do more. They are such a part of our family. I feel for your loss. Remember the barking till your ears explode.

Neal, My heart is breaking for you. When we had to put our Dessie down it was one of the worst days of my life! My husband Chuck ( who has since passed away) & I had Dessie from 3 months when we were first married. She was our baby! For a big dog, she had a long life, almost 16 years. She could not stand well or walk down stairs. We had a wheel chair ramp built for her and assisted her down with a canvas log carrier under her Belly. She was still a happy dog with no other aliments. When we took her to the vet, we were expecting a miracle maybe a doggie cart or something to help her walk, I had seem something like that for a 3 legged dog in a magazine. He told us we had to let her go... I am getting so choked up & holding back the floodgates, thinking of that day now, even after all these years. We held Dessie in our arms as she crossed the Rainbow Bridge. The vet let us stay as long as possible in the room . We were weeping & wailing, just a mess. I was afraid to get another dog the pain was so unbearable. Roger & I have had Bella now for 2 1/2 years. We could not resist when her picture arrived in our email. We are crazy about her, but missed out on the first 5 years of her life. The thought of being without her is unbearable, but I have to stay in the moment and enjoy all the love & joy she brings us. Neal, A big hug for you & your wife, we are her for you!

Bro - Part of me is crying (my eyes) and I didn't even know Roscoe. I totally understand and it does suck, that's life. If you ever need a friend, shoulder, or sound board... you know where to find me. I love your heart, I'm quite sure Roscoe does too.

Neal: Sorry to hear about Roscoe. hang in there....and keep blogging

Hi Neal,

I am sorry about your dog Roscoe.I have been through this,so i know how it feels.

hi Neal, as I said in my email yesterday, I've been down this road so many times because of all the animals I've adopted & raised over the years and it never gets any easier but... in time it's the great memories they gave us that last. Take care my friend!

I lost my Mira when she was almost 17. I know i will see her again at the Rainbow Bridge.

My heart does go out to you - it is sooo hard to lose a beloved pet and friend. I cried while reading your post - it brought back memories of saying goodbye to so many family friends (pets).

I know that pain and I know it is horrible, time does heal!

What a beautiful tribute to a wonderful dog. I hope you find some solace in knowing he had a terrific life and knew he was cherished. You did what he needed you to do; you put his needs first, as hard as it was, and let him go when it was time.

You have my deepest sympathies; I totally know what you are going through.

Neal,

I am very sorry for your loss.

Hi Neal, On Sept 11th, I lost my little love and I know as I have not yet experiencing the pain. My heartfelt condolences to you but especially to you because Men don't cry. Right! I didn't stop for days and still can't always control it. It OK, when love and lose our little one, it is pain more deep than anyone who hasn't experienced it could know. When my parents died, I don't recall grieving so much. It may be because humans never totally rely on us for everything and then give us more love than we have could know. It's a different kind of love but very special and unique, none the less. For some of us, it may be all we have , for others it is in addition but still unique and special. But special it is and the hurt of losing it, coupled with lastings mental visions of having to let them go is more than the body can always control.

Just wanted you to know I send you my heartfelt expression of sincere sympathy.

Neal.......my dog was Blue Boy. He was part Queensland and Border Collie. Smart as a whip, loved frisbie...would climb trees to get it, loved to swim and swing from a rope over the river and jump in. I loved him. Got him as a puppie and I think 13 years later (after taking him to Mexico, going camping, etc., etc.) I carried him in my arms to put him down. He couldn't hear any more, couldn't get around very well and just had had a stroke where he could only eat out of one side of his mouth. The vet made me feel terrible when I asked if I shuld put him down. That was hard for me to take. When I left the vet I went to the store to pick up a few things and every aisle I went on something reminding me of him and I could not stop crying. I have never had another dog since. He was the best. I truly understand.

Neal, I don't believe there isn't a pet lover on here that doesn't know that is one of the most difficult decisions you will ever have to make--and that you do it with pure love. I'm so sorry to hear about Roscoe.

Neal - I had to have my 17 year old Rhodesian Ridgeback put down in 2004. It broke my heart and I cried for weeks. I had had her for 12 of her 17 years - and that's the type of bond that many people can't understand.

I hope your days get easier. I know they will. Just remember - Roscoe crossed the Rainbow Bridge and is back to playing just like he was a puppy. And he thanks you for being so caring as to let him go.

Unconditional love is an amazing thing - and dogs are wonderful at both giving and receiving.

You just take the time you need..... people who have the same relationship with their little ones know what it's like.

After talking with you at length the other day I realized something. You share a lot with me when we do talk and I appreciate that. Men do cry.....and it's really okay. :)

P.S. I really like that profile picture of you ....

Man... two sad posts to read in a row. I had to have my dog, Rollei, put down about 5 years ago. I held him. And I cried. I miss that dog every day.

I understand where you are...

I'm so sorry Neal. Just reading this brought a tear to my eye as I remembered having to make the same choice for my cat a few years ago. He was the best, but in the end, very debilitated by diabetes, I had to let him go...with dignity.

I chose not to be present when my Calvin was put to rest too...I didn't think I could handle it.

It's ok to grieve and to cry...it gets better with time but doesn't seem to ever go away although I remember the good times with such clarity now and know that he had a GREAT life.

We are grateful to you, God, for the life of Roscoe

And entrusting him to the care and keeping of Neal and his family.

Help us all to remember the good time with Roscoe

And the joy and companionship he brought to everyone.

As we remember Roscoe, may we love each other more dearly

And unconditionally, as our pets do for us.

May we care for all of your creatures and your creation

With the same love you care for us.

...Amen

It's been over three months and I still miss my beloved Delilah as you do Roscoe. The sadness has turned to a small smile as I picture her by my side smiling back at me when I think of her, as that's how she wanted me to feel all the time (happy).

Nothing anyone can say or do to help right now...time will heal but you'll always have a place in your heart for little man!

Hi Neal,

I had a Russian Blue cat, named Gorby, for 18 years who passed away 4 years ago. I missed him very much in the beginning and I adjusted with time. It will get better. Best Wishes on your journey!

;>)

Neal, my heart weeps for you and Roscoe. It's like losing a family member and unfortunately I do understand the pain. Just remember the good time, the treats and the friendship you shared. He was a very lucky dog.

And, even though you're not ready there are so many souls out there that need the very love you have to give. I'm sorry.

Later in the rain~Deb

Neal.... Nothing much any of us can say to make things any better. Just know that Roscoe and his family are in my thoughts. David, Quinn, Marley and Millie.

Neal -
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I also lost my "best friend" Meggie, to breast cancer, after 12 years. It took me a long time to be able to even talk about losing her, and it has now been 8 years and it still hurts when I allow myself to think about it! It will get easier with time, but for now, don't try to ignore your grief.

OCT

2008

Neal,

Roscoe knew every day how much you and your wife loved him. Even on his last day when he "told" you he wanted to go to sleep. You will always have your wonderful memories of your little pal and someday maybe you'll meet up with him again. Meanwhile, being a type of terrier he's probably off chasing squirrels ... and running again like a champ. Take care and don't worry about how long it takes to feel better.

I totally understand why you had to do what you did. It was the humane and loving thing...although it still hurts. When I read your previous post...and saw that you had disabled your comments...I thought that you may need some time to just grieve. I'm so happy you shared your story with us now. You gave Rosco a GREAT LIFE. GBU!!

This is so sad. It is incredibly hard to do something like this. It will get a bit easier likely over time, but the sadness likely will always be there. We had a wonderful animal who lived for 18.5 years and we had a similar experience. It has been almost 10 years since this happened and we still miss him terribly. He was the best, as we are sure your guy was to you. Take care. We will keep you in our thoughts.

Our pets communicate with us and understand a lot more than most people give them credit for. I believe that one day we'll be reunited with all of our family members and pets, and when that happens, Roscoe will thank you for helping him through a difficult time and you'll relive 17 years of great memories.

my sincere apologies for your loss. I have a jack russell terrier who I feel the same way about. Roscoe was a very lucky dog.

My heart's in my throat after reading this. Nothing like the bond we feel with our animals. Thinking of you...

This is why I think we will see our dogs in heaven, and perhaps we will be able to talk with them finally. And I do mean that, please don't think I am weird :) - look at Bible accounts where animals were granted the ability to talk, and today's means of communicating with animals.

But overall, I'm so very sorry for your pain and loss. Please tell your wife too I'm sorry for the sadness Roscoe's passing brought...but I'm so glad he was such a faithful friend for so long. We are all so blessed when we have a loving pet like Roscoe.

We have had 2 pets and had to make that decision with both of them - it is very hard and so emotional - pets do become just like part of the family and it takes a while to get used to them not being around --- Good Luck!

I read your post then had to come back to it before I was able to reply. (Memories and emotions..)

In January we had to make the same decision for our little Annie. You described exactly what Annies last year or so was like (aging, cataracts, slower gait, but oh my still so cheerful and happy to be with us).

A good friend of mine rescues Siberian Huskies. Last count she has 11 at her home. Most end up staying with her as "forever" pets because she rescues those that are hard to place. I'm rambling..sorry Neal.

She told me something years ago that I remembered and had pounding in my head the morning that Annie stood up, fell down, then couldn't get back up. She said "When you are keeping them alive for you, then you'll know it's time to make the decision for them." Animals trust us to do the right thing for them as we are their voices.

You did the right thing Neal. That doesn't make the pain any less raw, but I hope it brings you some comfort.

BTW, I still cry when I think about her, but the tears are less and most often you can find me smiling or laughing when remembering Annie. I hope your tears are less and less, and more smiles find their way to not only your face but to your heart.

Neil, being an optimist i believe things will turn around for you. It's a terrible loss to lose a pet and never easy. We hope everything works out for you in the upcoming future and again sorry to hear about your loss. :(

Neal, I fel you r pain my friend. TLW and I went through this last year when we had to put Brutas Tutas down. The pain will pass.

My suggestion is to go out and get another dog right away. Roscoe would want you to have a companion. Go adopt one from the SPCA.

Beautiful tribute to your little buddy.

We are struggling with a similar situation. We have never had to put a dog down. Our Elliott still loves to eat but has difficulty breathing and walking. It's very sad but neither my husband nor I feel we can take him yet. He still rambles out to eat and sits looking out the window to a yard he once ran and roamed in. His breathing has become more labored in the past few days and I know the tme is coming near, he doesn't cry so we pray he's not in pain, but watching him walk is pretty sad. Everyone tells us we will know when the time has come.,,,,,,,,it sound like Roscoe let you know. This is the hardest part about loving a pet, letting go before they are in a lot of pain.

Our very sincere sympathy...we have cats not dogs...but have had to do the same thing....one that went thru surgery and "kitty chemo"...which had I realized what the odds were of survival...or the quality of life, in retrospect, I would not have done. You did the right thing...and I am sure he is barking his head off with thanks in the big dog park in the sky.

Neal, I feel so bad I don't even know what to say! I personally own two Italian Greyhounds and don't know what it will be like when that day comes.

Dogs bring us so much joy and one time my husband sent me a joke email about why dogs are better than wives and it was funny but so true. Who is the first to greet you when you walk in the door with so much enthusiasm?

I am sending you a huge VIRTUAL HUG :)

I am so sorry. I remember his last birthday and I had not realized he'd passed away. Great tribute!

Neal-so sorry for your loss-I had to put down my golden a few years ago, and the kids still talk about him today. We now have a chocolate lab we rescued but Duke will be forever in our hearts. People that don't have animals don't understand that they really are a part of our families!

Neal sorry for your loss man. I know how you feel as I ahve had quite a few dogs in my life time. They do become like family. I can relate to your situation as I had to put two of my dogs to sleep because of cancer. It's a real bummer.

So sorry for your loss Neal. After 4 years, we still miss our dog Taylor. We're still not able to bring another pet into our lives, as we remember the pain too much. You are in my prayers.

Bob

Neal, I am so sorry. I have horrible wireless connection where I am staying in TN. I tried all evening to get my long comment to you and Wendy to go through. Just know I send hugs and comfort to you both. I'll write more later when I get home.

Hi Neal,

I'm so sorry for your loss, Roscoe sounds like he was an awesome dog. Hang in there. :)

Hi Neal

I am so sorry for your loss and I DO UNDERSTAND how you feel because we had to put our almost 14 yr old German Shepherd, Harry to sleep as well. The day we had to put him to sleep was 31st December. It will be 4 years this Dec and that day always remind my husband and I of Harry! We both went with Harry to the vet and I can tell you, up till today, I still have a very clear picture of how he 'sleeps'!

Hello Neal, I'm sorry for your loss. I've lost dear relatives including my Mom and Dad but quite frankly, losing a dear pet is just as hard. I think dogs are like angels from heaven, sent to teach us what real love is. Sounds like Roscoe was definitely an angel dog. May he rest in Peace and may memories of him keep you strong.

I totally feel your pain---after having Roscoe for 17 years he surely was your best friend. I went through a similar situaion a few years ago--I was devastated so know how you feel. I hope whentime heals, you'll consider a new friend in your life.

I understand how it feels, and I hurt for you.

Neal,

My heart breaks for you. I understand completely. I am so very very sorrry.

Oh Neal: I am so, so sorry. I KNOW exactly what you're feeling. I had to have my Poncho put down four years ago, but the pain I felt at that moment, is still as bad as it was then WHEN I think "too much" about it. I held him until until the end...and told him I loved him. Our wonderful pets, who give us (like you said) unconditional love, really enrich our lives.

A beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Neal, this gives me tears reading.....I have to say I'm happy you got 17 years - that's amazing for a dog. Sounds like it was a great friendship.

Hi Neal, I am so sorry about Roscoe, 17 years is a long time, however, that does not make the pain any easier to bear, perhaps harder. It has been three years since we had to put our Old English, Bentley down. He just could not go on any longer, 85 lbs and bad hips, he was only 10. We still miss him and cry about him, we also laugh and tell great stories about him.

We adopted a rescue sheep dog, Star, she is old and has cataracts, but is in good health, she did not replace Bentley, but she is a tribute to him and I am grateful she found us.

The pain will be there and you need to grieve, pets are a part of us.

Take Care, Christine

Neal- Sorry to hear about Roscoe. I know how you are hurting. My eyes filled with tears, as I read your story.

We had two dogs who lived to the same ripe old age. I held the first one, as he died. The second time, it was harder, because we had to make the decision. We tried everything to treat him, to no avail. The vet said we were putting him out of his misery. As we waited in the office, Westi raised his leg to pee. We reached to take him out of the room but the vet said "leave him alone, he has a right to make a final statment on the situation."

Neal - I'm Sorry to hear about your best friend Roscoe.

It is definitely very painful to loose a part of your family. I'm thankful for all the great years you two enjoyed together. Neal, you and your wife gave Roscoe a great home, thank you for that. You will never forget your friend. I just prayed for you!

Dan

I am wiping away tears because it reminds me of how I had to put my dog Tadpole to sleep last year. He had diabetes, had a number of back surgeries and then his kidneys and liver started to fail. I really tried to help him through it, but he came to me one day and I will never forget the look in his eye. You see, I had just gone through an extremely painful divorce and the look he gave me said "You are here in your new home now and you are going to be ok. I did my job in making sure you were set up here. Now I need to go."

I took him to the vet and he was wagging his tail as I held him and pet him. I had the vet give him some medication to make him fall asleep before they put him down. He died in my arms while looking into my eyes.

That all seems very dramatic, but the truth is that Tadpole was there for me for 10+ years and he was my number 1 guy.

I had him cremated and I put him in my garden, because that is where he liked to hang out with me.

The pain gets easier, and the memories are mostly happy ones.

Best wishes to you.

My little 100 lb Lab is my baby... so I truly feel for you and it is a sad loss because it is a part of your family. God bless.

What a difficult, difficult decision for you to make. I'm so sorry for your loss. Our puppy, Zoey, fills our lives with joy, as I'm sure Roscoe did for your family. The first time I took Zoey to our vet, he asked, "is she a pet, or is she a part of your family?" Without hesitation I said, "part of our family." I know you felt the same way. Roscoe was well-loved and happy because of you, and that's the best kind of dogs life there is.

Neal,

I had to put down my toy poodle Sienna 2 1/2 years ago. She was 16 1/2, beautiful, sweet, a trooper. I stayed with her to the end and am very glad I did. She looked very peaceful, just asleep, instead of shivering and gaunt with fear.

It took almost 2 years for me to get over her and commit to another doggie. I finally took home a new puppy at the first of the year. Gypsy is also a toy poodle, and looks and acts very much like her "sister". Though puppies can test your patience, it was the best dose of medicine I could have ever prescribed for my grief.

So go ahead. Get another puppy. And don't worry about when. It may be 2 weeks, a month, 6 months or 2 years. You'll know when the time is right, when the grief is spent and there's a hole in your heart that needs to be filled.

Gypsy's Mom

Neal, I am so so sorry about Roscoe. I read a few months ago that he wasn't doing well. I was so saddened to see this. I know your heart is breaking right now, and no words can or will make it better. I have been there.

My old Golden, Lulu, had cancer and I had to have her put to sleep. I'll never forget it. I felt so lonely, coming home to emptiness. I cried for weeks. No more daily car rides together, no kisses when I walked in the door. I had her long before my kids and she meant the world to me.

Everyone wanted me to immediately go out and get another dog, but I felt I would not be honoring her in doing so. It took me about 8 months and then I just started "thinking about it". Well, you know where that leads? I now have my main man, Gus. I adopted him from a Golden Retriever rescue and I love him SO darned much. I never ever thought I could love another dog like I did Lulu, but I do.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It seems as if you have a lot of friends, thinking of you and your family. Hang in there and you know we are all here for you if needed.

Dammit Neal! One of my dogs is really starting to show his age too. We've noticed it big time this summer and even more so now that we're back. He's deaf, my other dog is blind and I know if something happens to him the blind one is really going to be a mess without him. It's SO SAD. I'm so sorry about Roscoe. You've written happy posts about him before and it just breaks my heart for you and your wife. :( Hang in there darlin!

Neal, I am so sorry for your loss. Roscoe was quite obviously, an incredible part of your family and it will take time to heal and move forward.

My parents lost their beloved Sadie, a Chesapeake Bay Retriever" to old age about 3 months back and have since adopted/rescued an adorable lab mix that looks like our old childhood dog. I think the resemblance was what stole their hearts as Cindy was with our family almost 18 years from just after my birth until I went to college so she was family too. Their new addition, Jazz, has been a bit shy and needs extra TLC but that's been great for my folks as they've had a lot to give since Sadie passed!

GBU and your family.

Neal - I'm sorry to read about the passing of your dog Roscoe. A few years we had to put our Cocker Spaniel down, due to cancer. It was really hard when I walked in the door not being greeted by my Lady. Herbed was empty, it was really difficult. Not too long after, we had to get another puppy, an Australian shepherd mix, named Koda Bear. What a bundle of joy, since then we added another mixed breed named Sassie. I'm sure you will find comfort in reading all these comments and I just want to add that it will get easier in time and I'm sure the memories of your beloved dog Roscoe will stay with you forever.

I am so very sorry for your loss. Like you tragically, I had to have my Great Dane, Rachet, put too sleep. I held him in my arms and lap and stayed with him until he was with God. The only consolation that I can offer is that "after all the love and good they give us there has to be something very special waiting for them on the other side" keep close your memories. Eventually like Rachet's, Roscoe's will bring you smiles with little pain.

Cathy

Neal, Sorry to hear about the loss of your best friend Roscoe. The love he gave will be with You and your Wife forever.

Neal, I have a poem for you. I will be saying this to my 13 year old lab soon, way too soon for me.

A Loss Of A Companion.....

If it should be that i grow weak,
and pain should keep me from my sleep
then you must do what must be done
for this last battle can't be won.

You will be sad i understand,
don't let your grief then stay your hand
for this day more than all the rest,
your love for me must stand the test.

we've had so may happy years,
what is to come can hold no fears,
you'd not want me to suffer so,
the time has come please let me go.

Take me to where my needs they'll tend
and please stay with me till the end
hold me firm and speak to me,
until my eyes no longer see.

Please do not grieve it must be you,
who has this painful thing to do,
wev'e been so close, we two these years,
don't let your heart hold back the tears.

My heart is with you - we had a similar situation with our hound, Spencer, a few years ago. We were NOT going to get another dog - then we ended up rescuing a chocolate lab named LuLu whose owners claimed was "too wild". She just needed the right family and now ours is complete again. I hope your family becomes complete again when your heart heals.

There is a special place in Heaven for pet lovers. We care for our animals like they are children, we hurt when they hurt and smile when they are happy. I am touched by your love for Roscoe, he was a very lucky guy. Thank you for posting your feelings. Now, I gotta go give my dog Truffles a big hug.

My sincerest condolences. Run free little Roscoe.

Roscoe had awesome parents. that is the main thing. He was truly loved and cared for. That's what it is all about. Whenever someone tells me how spoiled our dog is I say, so what, he is only here for a short time and that time will be the best it can be. I feel your grief, i've been through it. God bless!!

I sm so sorry for your loss. I hope that you know that old saying. That all dogs go to heaven. You will be in my prayers.

Wow Neal..I can feel your pain. I had a similar situation with one of my babies. Sandy was a wonderful dog. We did all we could to help him, The pain just got tooo bad. I came down one morning as your wife did only to find him sprawled out in his bed. After calling for my husband like your wife did, both my children ran down as well. After both of the kids, me and my husband leaned down and held him he quietly went to sleep. Never to open his eyes again. This was the first day in my life I ever had a migraine. This was over 10 years ago and I remember it like it was yesterday. We since have 2 new dogs and love them very much. Unfortunately one of them is getting old and tired. I am not looking forward to her being sick. Unfortunately with the good comes the sad. You are in my prayers. As a fellow Weston resident I hope you can accept my offer of help if you need anything.

Lori Isaacson

Neal- I am typing through tears- I am so sorry for the loss of your best friend. They say in time- it will get easier. I know that does not help now- but just think of him up there running, jumping, barking and chasing all of the cats and squirrels he wants.

Neal - May you and your family find comfort during this difficult time. The loss of your best friend it tragic and I hope your memories of him bring you comfort.

Oh Neal, I can't tell you how sorry I am as I sit here balling my eyes out. You did the right thing, I am sooo soorrry for you and your wife, my heart is bleeding. I have been away from AR for months due to life stuff and this is the first post I read ... wow, I have 2 jacks and one is getting up there and I so relate. He is feeling no pain and is running with the big guys, just know that he is watching you and you will someday be reunited with your best friend...I can't read all the comments, my emotional state can't handle it but, if no one has told you, google the rainbow bridge, it is a wonderful poem about the loss of a pet. Hang in there...

Neal, Oh my god I am crying my eyes out. We lost a precious dog about 9 years ago and I still cry thinking about Gizmo.....

They are are family, no doubt. I am not sure if the site exists any longer, but I found a pet loss site, where you could post your tribute to your dog with a photo, etc and mail it off to family and friends, etc. It really helped me alot, just as it helped for you to write this post, tell us your intimate last moments with Roscoe and let it out. It made me feel good that his story was out there on the internet for anyone to read and it sort of made him live on for me, if that makes any sense.

Bless you and if you are so inclined, another precious member of the family will join you and trust me when I tell you the heavy heart you have will be lifted. I swore I would not get another dog as I could not take the pain of the loss again. I just could not get over the loss. I finally broke down got a Daschund (Gidget) about 6 months later and the heavy heart I had vanished the moment that little baby was on my lap and looking to me for loving. We now have another Daschund-Fritz 2 years old. What a happy family we are...but Gizmo will always hold a special place like Roscoe will for you.

Take care and thanks for sharing!

(and a hug)

Hi Neal- as a person who loves and respects our animal co-habitants on this earth, I feel deeply the pain of your loss. Like many above, I've been there too. When you are ready please visit www.rainbowbridge.com I promise it will make you feel good even while you cry your eyes out, it will be cathartic. There's nothing closer than knowing the company you're with cares as you do. My sympathies for your loss.

I am afraid I am getting ready to face the same thing. It is so painful, but more painful to not experience their love. Bless your heart. My heart is heavy for you.

My husband and I are extreme animal lovers, I feel your pain and loss so well!! I've been through the same experience with our German Shepherd, and a kitty cat, both whom we had for a very long time and were a huge part of our lives and the best friends you'll ever have. My heart goes out to you, hang in there buddy and maybe someday soon you'll be lucky enough to get another new friend in your life.

Ah I am so sorry for your loss. It is hard when pets die. They do love us unconditionaly and sometimes people don't understand how sad their passing makes us.

Neal - I read the post before and was just too upset to comment. I lost my beloved dog a few months ago, I'm still not over it. I feel your pain. You have my deepest sympathy

I am so sorry for your loss. We have had our dog for 7 years, the longest I have ever had a pet. Our children have grown and moved out so it is just my husband and Annie, our yorkie/pom. I can tell see is getting older. But hopefully I still have lots of years to enjoy her. Your story was so heartfelt, it showed how much you loved Roscoe. Take care.

So sorry for your loss. I dread the day when I have to face that path in life. Chin up...

Neal,

Funny how those little souls that love us dearly end up being our best friends and confidants, huh?

I know how you feel. Know he is frolicking happily in puppy heaven!

Neal, so sorry to hear of your loss. I love dogs and always grew up with at least one and usually two at the house. I had a Char Pei named Coconut from my early twenties until thirty. He had a few health issues but was always "the protector". In the summer of 2002 he became seriously ill and passed away. I put having another pet out of my mind for quite a while and finally decided to take the plunge this March and got a new corgi--Ginger or Lenox Gilligan's Island for short. Ginger keeps me company and goodness I know she makes me ---walk as I certainly do not walk her.

God never puts more before us than we can handle. Take comfort in the peace that your friend now has.

Neal,

We are really sorry for your loss and totally understand. Bob's dog was 18 years old when he had the same sad decision to make about his dog Zack. He was a really special friend and one that was very difficult to replace so we decided not to make that decision. When it feels right, you'll know whether or not you should get another pet. In the meantime Roscoe will always have a special place in your heart.

Hi Neal, I am sorry about Roscoe, he sounded like a great dog. Tears came to my eyes as I read your post. The greatest thing is love.

OCT

2008

Neal,
I missed the earlier post about Roscoe's death---so sorry and I share your grief. Anyone who has ever lost their beloved pet understands how difficult it is.

Beautiful Tribute, and I too would want to remember him with that vibrant picture.

We have had many pets - right now have 2 cats, 3 dogs and 11 horses. We are way down in numbers with that. With that many there have been many losses and decisions to be made. You did what was best - 17 is ancient and most of that time was in good health - he did well.

Neal, I am truly sorry for your loss. I myself have an aging dog and they are truly part of our family. My dog has been there for me through the most difficult of times and even though they can only offer a sympathetic stare, we know that their love is unconditional. I am sorry we havent spoke sooner, but if you need someone to grab a beer with let me know. All the best, Alan

Hello Everyone,

First I'd like to say that I'm sorry but I can answer each and everyone individually on this post as I normally do on others but I felt it would make more sense to just write to all of you and let you know that I just spent a few days reading every single comment and was surprised I made so many people cry. Believe me...it was one of the hardest posts I ever wrote and I'm not the type to just put all my feelings out there.....not even in person.

Yesterday marked a week since my bud has left me but I'm definitely feeling much better and have been talking to many people and I also want to thank the calls and emails as well. I don't know how I'll ever get over this loss but I guess I needed a little closure.

I"m happy it brought back memories for some and I'm sorry that I made some realize that they might be in the same situation in the very near future. I also know that pets that have passed long ago are still in our minds and that's because "We shall never forget"

I'm still sad and don't always understand it but I know it was for the best now.

I want to thank all of you who left me all the thoughtful messages.

Neal....January will be 2 years since I lost Nero. We knew that 2007 would be his last year with us (he was going blind and just not moving like he use to) but, we went very suddenly, altho I still had to make the decision you had to. But, I'm thankful that Nero did not suffer, and I actually did not have as hard of time with the decision as I did the lonliness afterwards...and still have it. I've not got another dog yet, because of real estate..but maybe I should..I'd have someone, other than my partner, to keep me on track! I'm not sure I was on AR at the time, but I did send out a note to my clients...and got some 50 responses back! I wanted to share another Dog Poem with you that so touched my heart (yes, crying now, again after 2 years) and it hangs right here, above my computer where I can look at it every day! Just know he's in a better place, waiting for you!

OCT

2008

Neal, My sincere condolences. I can tell by the way you wrote that you had a deep and heartfelt love for Roscoe. We put down our 17 year old cat 3 weeks ago. I had my wife go to the vet and do it as I would have cried something fierce. We buried our Cremant on the hill behind our house so she can be next to her late mate.

I am so sorry :*( My dog passed several years ago and I still miss him every day! It's still hard. I've been wanting to get a new dog and afraid it's going to be unfair to the new one because I am afraid I will want te replace my old dog :/

It will get better, the most important thing is all the wonderful memories you had.

Neal - to many memories to say what I would like to say as we went through this with one of our poodles not to long ago... it is never easy they become part of the family and then they are gone.

I understand where you are coming from and it has taken me 'some time' to comment on your post. I lost my little guy in April of this year. We spent a lot of money to keep him going but it was cruel to let him suffer. On the morning I had the appointment to put him down I went into my room where he was sleeping. I wiped his eyes and took him into my arms. He died at that very moment. He saved me from suffering the drive to the vet's office. Thank you for sharing your story. I think of him everyday.

Just a side note- My father passed in 2002. This was his dog.

OCT

2008

Neal-I'm sorry and I've been thinking about you everyday..I know its taken me some time to get over here and comment..you were his best friend and he was yours...4 legged or 2 leg it doesn't matter. I can't imagine how it would feel to lose one of my cats...

Remember sparky???? He had a wheel chair and finally my parents had to do what you had to do...it wasn't easy for them either...wouldn't you know it...my dad is getting another basset...soon....

Sending you hugs and kisses from Daytona Beach...can I do that????? Well I am..

p.s. your wife is one wonderful lady.

OCT

2008

Again I would like to thank everyone for stopping by...It mean alot and of course I am starting to recover but I do have my days were it's just unavoidable to be sad...waking up and coming home and not seeing him there waiting is still tough but I'm sure he is happy now and pain free....thanks for all the support.

Neal- I know it has been a long road for you and Roscoe, I am sorry for your loss, I know your house must seem too quiet without Roscoe. I went through this pain when my first dog Lucca died. It was really tough, but even worse for my 3 year old daughter. All my Best,

Joe Federico

Neal, I feel for your loss. I am all teared up here in the office reading your post and relating it to my black lab Beau. I know the day will eventually come, but no one wants it to. You will be in my prayers.

And always remember you got 17 great years with him. For many dogs that is 2 lifetimes! I hope you find a way to enjoy your weekend.

OCT

2008

Neal ~ i know your getting so many comments and it might be hard to read.. but know that the unconditional love you sharred is a rare gift of pure love when you welcome it in your life as you did. Roscoe has a very blessed life and as dogs live in the moment he will always have you. I have been there and it is very hard. - You gave life a chance something that life is made of.

I've since rescued a new family member and we are celebrating life!

Neal: I cried my eyes out reading your story. I've never had to make that decision for one of my pets, but I do understand the deep bond that you shared with Roscoe. My Cocker Spaniel Coco is 9 years old now and she is definitely a member of our family and loved as such. May God bless you during this difficult time.

Neal, you were a great companion to him all those years.

Neal, I read this and didn't send a comment. You know how I feel and how much I've been thinking of you. Just checking in to see how you are doing. xxoo Love, from your older sister, Susan.

OCT

2008

Thanks again and sorry I didn't leave a comment for everyone but it's impossible for me at this time but as I said above...I read every single one that was left here and truly appreciate all who care. I'm still taking it day by day and starting to get back to some sort of normality but my drive to work has been a little low at times but I'm feeling better each day. Thanks for all of you who called me and emailed me.

I am so sorry to hear about your best friend. That touched me deeply because I recently lost my father. Enough said.

OCT

2008

Good morning Neal, I'm very sorry for your loss.

Neal, how sad for you and your family. Roscoe was a cutie and I know how much a pet can mean..mine is so spoiled she doesn't even know she's a dog.

OCT

2008

Neal i'm somehow late in commenting. I missed your post about dear Roscoe. I can understand how hard it must be. I was almost in your shoes a month ago. Time is the only thing that will fill the void of not having him around. He knows you loved him enough to let him go. Please know We care...

Lizette & Chanel

OCT

2008

Well yesterday I wanted to go to the humane society and seek out my demons...I wanted to look at all the pets that didn't have a home...don't worry because I'm not ready to have another so I walked around and played with a few dogs...also I wanted to donate all of Roscoe's food and that made me feel a little better...thanks

Neal - I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost dogs over the years and it still brings tears to my eyes. I am glad you went to the humane society, and when you are ready, you can have another dog. They really give so much to our lives when they are here, and it really is unconditional love. My fiance lost his dog Max last year (only 6 years old) and I still miss him - he was a good boy.

OCT

2008

Neal - you sure have touched a special place with us all. What a beautiful life you and Roscoe shared! You are a special person when you've been loved liked that! Not many can say they have...

NOV

2008

Oh my goodness Neal.... What a heart felt post... I completely understand what you both are going through. We lost Max back in Aug and not a day goes by that we don't think of him. I hope time will lessen the pain for both of us.

TAKE CARE

Neal,

October 6 is my birthday. On October 5, 2003 we had to put down our black lab Max. He had a tumor and was failing fast. We came home to find him in the kitchen bleeding from the mouth. We knew we had to do it then.

It was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I cried for months. I would get choked up talking about him, or thinking about him. It was the worst pain I have ever had.

I wasn't breaking down at the drop of a hat, yet I thought of him every day. Every morning when I got up, Max and I had "OUR" time together before anyone else got up, it was special to us. So every morning was a reminder that he wasn't there, and I was alone. It hurt so bad. But I also longed for the companionship of a dog.

A year and a few months later it was time to get a new dog. So we went to the shelter and adopted a boxer/lab mix. It was a good fit.

Then a few months later we adopted an abandoned puppy. They are great dogs, but I don't have the same bond as I had with Max.

Thanks for sharing your story. I'm sorry for your pain, but I can honestly say, "I know how you feel".

I sure hope there are dogs in Heaven.

Here's Max - it was great talking about him here. I do miss him. max

here's jasmine - Roxy is in the back

jasmine

Thanks again to all who took the time out to leave gracious comments and photos...I'm getting back to normal but I'll never forget him...I've even talked about getting another but I'm sure I'll need a long time before having to do all the things for him and I want to make sure I have the time to love the next one the same.

NOV

2008

Neal, I was just stopping by to check on you and your family. I just read your last comment. Yes, you will be able to love another one, just as deeply. I'm living proof! I'm crazy about my new dog after the loss of my best friend. Just give yourself time. You'll know when the time is right and you'll know your new dog when you see it!

I'm sure you are at NAR this weekend...have a great time. You need it!

NOV

2008

Neal

I am so sorry. My daughter just had to put her pug to sleep too. Its so sad.

Tinker

NOV

2008

I feel for you but am very happy that he died of old age. One of my earliest pets died at Christmas time from eating the poinsettia that I had bought for my mom. I did a blog a couple of days ago about holiday plants that are poisonous to our little furry friends.

NOV

2008

Thanks guys...I'm feeling better but of course some days I wish he was still here. I'm not ready to just get another pet right now but as I knew when it was time to let him go...I'll know when I'll be ready to commit my time to love another as much. I still look at his pictures everyday when I walk through the house and it's still hard but no more major sadness.

NOV

2008

Neal, we have put two dogs to sleep in the past two years and now we have another one in chemotherapy for lymphoma. We also have two 6 year old rescued mutts. Even though they all have extremely different personalities, we love each one as much as anyone can. Having other pets around seems to make the sadness easier to handle. But I can tell you that 5 dogs in the house is much like a zoo. Like "what happened here?" Anyway, I understand your feelings of loss. And I love that you are spending time with shelter dogs who need so much.

DEC

We all lose many things in our lifetimes. Losing a pet is particularly devastating because they are there for us, don't complain, and are faithful to the end. We love them so much because they don't judge us and they don't talk back. The biggest compliment you can pay your pet is to go out and rescue or buy another immediately. It's part of life.

DEC

While reading your post, I could feel your pain. We had to put down our Tibetan terrier, Geo, My memories came pouring back when Geo was sick, and I couldn't stop crying. We now have another dog, a chocolate lab named Zeke. He is such a joy, so lovable, and such unconditional love.

JAN

I am crying for you. Our 12 year old cocker developed diabetes last year, and the cataracts just came on in a two week period..she is walking into steps, walls etc. totally blind so fast. I don't know how long we have with her, and can only hope she will tell me when it is time like Roscoe. There has to be dogs in heaven 'cause they are the only thing that shows us unconditional love on earth.

JAN

Neal,

Reading your heartfelt post about Roscoe, touched me deeply.......I'm so sorry for your loss,

We lost 2 of our elderly dogs over the past 2 years and it's never easy loosing our pet companions. They are part of our families. Our "Sheba" -was our big girl "Malamute" & she had to be euthuanized last year....it was so sad. It's never easy.

One of our seller's left a puppy and cat behind when their home sold. They just left them behind when they moved! We took the puppy who is now 2 years old - her name is "Keika". One of our preferred lender's adopted the cat. I took Keika with the intentions of finding a home for her. But of course, she found her own home & stayed.

Someday, when the time is right, another canine will come into your family's life and create a new journey with a new friend,

Take care.

Rita

JAN

Neal,

Wow... Roscoe was quite the little man! Thank you for sharing your history together with everyone. I am a professional pet sitter who has come to specialize in assisting elderly or sick pets (and their families) to tend to their special needs in their final years, and so that when the time does come - the pet can hopefully transition with more comfort and dignity. It's so hard for families, especially when most pet parents need to be elsewhere at various times during the whole process. I am aware that our 2 dogs and our cat will make the final leg of their journey one day... I hope to handle it with as much mindfulness as you!

I know that your blog has been very cathartic and therapeutic for so many others who have experienced that sort of loss as well. Thank you.

FEB

Neal, this was written back in the Fall but we just had to go through this ourself with our Abby. I wrote a memorial about her also. It has been a tough couple of weeks for us. The hardest part was having to tell our son by instant messenger while he is over serving our country in Iraq. He gets home in a month and wants a dog here to greet him so we just adopted a new dog today. We went with a Golden this time so we wouldn't be comparing. We got him from our local Golden rescue and he is so sweet. Today is his first day home. They become such a part of our family it makes it so hard for us as they dont' live as long as we do. We have been married 32 years and this is our 4th dog so we are making it about 10 years per dog. Our house just felt so empty without a dog. I'm helping my veterinarian buy a house right now and she recommended we get a dog right away. I don't know that we would have if not for our son but today I'm glad that we did. Long story to say I feel your PAIN!

FEB

I see it's been awhile since you posted the passing of your dog! I do hope that your days are much brighter! We have our first dog as of one year and I have much to be thankful for! Best wishes!

MAR

Being a dog lover i can understand that that would be horable and very sad. Your fellow dog lover,

-Peg

Being a dog lover i can understand that that would be horable and very sad. Your fellow dog lover,

-Peg

APR

I am so sorry for your loss. I recently experienced the loss of our dog Angel, 15 years old. You can read our story here and about our view on pets here. It's hard to get through the grieving process and it is something that will stay with you for a long time, I am told. We had a tombstone made for her and got it the day we came home with Gabbie. I cry every day still because I miss her. Now Gabbie is home with me and is under my feet and I know it is God's way of helping me heal the hurt and hole I feel that has been left since my "Angel Girl" exhaled.

APR

Hi Neal,

I am so very sorry for "Roscoe". I completely understand. I had to first take mu "significant other" beloved dog "Pepper" in by myself to put her down and then carry her out to the car. It was so difficult. Then my "Big Boy" was old and hurting and I think I was in a bit of denial. I had to put him down and went in with him. (He was human). Long Story and I was more at peace sitting with him and knowing the comfort he was in with me with him. It was peaceful. I did not go in w/ my significant dog "Pepper" basically afraid, and now I wish I did or did. "Sam" my baby is here with me everyday.

He is at peace and always here with me. My daughter came home from college and said that she can feel him here.

MAY

We lost a dog recently (Rudy / Basset Hound) and understand your grieving.
We have a a picture memorial for him at:
http://www.lulusfordogs.com/rudy.htm

JUN

I'm so sorry. Losing a pet really is like losing a family member. They treat us better than most people. And many of the pictures in the comments are adorable too.

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