For me, the ending for 2009 was very good. I held my own very nicely with sales but my personal life had taken a turn. A nine year relationship had ended. One in which I thought I would be starting a family soon and looking to experience all that has to offer. My condo that I had bought in Clearwater needed to be short sold because I no longer could afford to do both (my home and condo). I have an agent that I know down there handeling it for me. I have tried to call her for the last 2 weeks and not heard back. Now, I am back to the drawing board to re-list and start over. We did have several offers submitted. Or at least that's what she told me. But worse off, it was my own sister that was living in my condo that never paid me on time in the last 2 years which was a large catalyst to the short sale. And when she found out she was pregnant, I guess that was the cue to save as much as possible even if it meant shorting her own sister. I have not received a dime in over 4 months. I am still paying on the HOA and taxes. And now, I have had a very slow start in the 2010 year. I believe a little depression settled in and I was not as focused as I usually am. When I had my fiance with me, we were a team. He had the steady income and I was able to boost our household income when my commission check came. Now, that is not the case. It is very scary and hard all alone, with an entire home full of furniture that I really have no use for and animals to tend to and pool to clean. It is overwhelming at times and I feel like I've lost the safety net that allowed me to confidently thrive in the real estate market.
But I keep on plugging away- refusing to give up. I know I am good at what I do and help a lot of people. Last night I read a wonderful bit out of a book I read daily. It just so happened that the chapter was about the biggest sin- Pride. And one of the strongest ways to fight off Pride is to learn Humility and become Humble.
It was a perfect way to end the day and remind myself that I need to do the best I can, but not to let pride get in the way. Offer my services to the best of my ability. To genuinely care for the sake of caring and not to worry about what lies ahead. It will all work out, in the order it should, despite my worrying. I have no control-I am a servant.
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