I just got done watching “We Are Marshall”. Around here we just call it “the Marshall movie”.
I am probably the last person in West Virginia to watch this movie. I wanted to while it was at the theater. Somehow I didn’t. I bought the movie as soon as it came out. It’s been sitting with the rest of my movies, in somewhat good company, but I just couldn’t do it.
I knew that they died. I know that we have to go on. It’s just hitting to close to home.
Yes, I came to tears several times. But I laughed a lot more than I thought I would. And I was happy.
That was my home up there on that screen. I know those mountains. And that train, I heard “my” train several times. That same train runs just houses away from me, and that is exactly the sound I hear while falling asleep, or sitting on my back porch pretending to work on the computer. (I’m really staring into space or cheering internally for my old dog who barks for no reason – it makes him so happy.) That train is the soundtrack behind most of my life, but that’s the first time I heard it from my TV.
The extras were people from around here. My friend Bob was in there several times, but I quit looking for him because the story grabbed me so fast. I know those bridges. I know those buildings at Marshall. I’ve stood on that field, sat by that fountain, laughed in that student union.
That was us on that screen. This song is from the wrong era, but I heard it in my head while I watched. *Click*
I dragged my feet about watching the movie because it hits too close to home in too many ways. Yes, there are tears on my face, but I got more than I expected out of it.
I leaned that grief is messy, not just for me but for everyone. I learned that we keep playing anyway, because really it’s not about winning, sometimes it’s just about going on.
We’re supposed to go on. That’s why we’re still here. We don’t have to understand and we don’t have to like it, we just have to do it.
We’ll get better at it as we go along. It’s just how it is.
It took me too long to watch the movie, but I’m so glad I did.