In final preparations for my Boston Marathon qualifier to be held on January 1 2013 I ran the San Antonio Rock-N-Roll Marathon two weeks ago. It was supposed to be a hard, but not leg-busting event that would prepare my mind for the pain I will certainly endure on January 1st. It was supposed to be a confidence building event.
A week after the event I found it difficult at best to maintain my normal workout pace. Doubt has started to set in about my ability to run a 7:15 average mile over 26.2 miles in order to qualify me for Boston. This doubt has affected every run I have had since and I am seriously concerned that I may not make my qualifying time. The joy I have had running the past 6 months has been replaced with pain and doubt the past two weeks. I have considered that failure may be eminent.
It’s not so different at work is it? Too often we get so paralyzed by our failure to achieve our original goals that we give up on them. The things that once brought us fulfillment can quickly turn to drudgery and feelings of inadequacy.
Fortunately a fabulous wife and kids noticed my pain. Last night they “sat me down” and gave me a pep talk. My kids talked about how much weight I’ve lost. My wife reminded me of my newfound energy and positive outlook I’ve had since I’ve been running. Their confidence and love was able to help me see that the journey to run a Boston qualifying time has been one of the most personally fulfilling (though painful) goals I’ve sought after. The proof of my families efforts showed brightly this morning when I ran a brisk 10 miles in the drizzling rain and had the time of my life. It was nothing short of awesome.
As I look back at 2012 it could be all too easy to get down and question my efforts due to the accounts I’ve lost. On the other hand I can choose to focus on all the new accounts we’ve won as well as the many long-term accounts we’ve strengthened. Ultimately this year is a fabulous success because I choose to make it such. The journey has been fulfilling, filled with learning, and that is where my focus should be.
I encourage you to do the same. Consider the lessons you’ve learned and the new clients and friends you’ve made this year. Focus on the positive and use this energy and confidence to propel you to new heights in 2013. The sweat and tears you’ve shed can make you stronger if you choose to let them.