1 TIMOTHY1:12-16 And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has enabled me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry. Although I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man, but I obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief. And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love which are in Vhrist jesus.This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief. However for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life.
When I first started praying for guidance and discernment as to how I could serve the Lord, these were verses that really touched me. I wondered how could someone who had my attitude for the last twenty or thirty years possibly be used in the ministry? Who would take me seriously? But after i read this I knew that the Lord could use me because, not in spite of what I had been.When I volunteered to go on the radio program, although no one called it an interview, I know I was interviewed a few times. I didn't mind because it is a reflection on our Church, and I'm honored to have the chance. I was asked at least three time who I thought my audience would be, who I wanted to reach. Well that's easy i want to reach the unsaved. There are plenty of people to preach to the choir and I know that it is necessary, and I may be there one day but for right now I want to help others receive the gift I've been given. I want people to know that Christ does love them, that he does listen to them, that He does talk to you if you are willing to listen. And most of all, that you can lead a righteous life, its not impossible, there are good people and you can be one.
So even though it seems like I change daily, or should say grow daily, it seemed like today i was brought back a few months or so I can't really remember when this scripture first spoke to me, but today it reaffirmed, probably because I an finally seeing it possible. I still falter way to often and I know its going to be a while yet but I am starting to see myself as a , I'm not even sure of the correct title but I am seeing my life as a ministry. I know God will help clear it up for me and I really am lloking foward to the rest of muy life for possibly the first time in my life.
God Bless and Thank You
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