I am done worrying about my trip to Japan. I do think the universe was/is telling me something. I was scheduled to go next month. My route was through China, and that can not be for the upcoming future. So I decided yesterday that I was not going to work so hard for something that I can't change or won't benefit me.
I have yet to speak to my agent but at this point it is only a formality. And now off to the grocery store.