Good morning!!
I woke this morning with a desire to write…
I was woken from a deep sleep just before 5 am by a dream. A dream that startled me a bit…
A dream that made me long for things to be different. Back to the way they were. As a bit of a natural worrier, I often feel the desire to change the past, or control my future…
But, given the changes I have committed myself to over the last month, I realize that I cannot change the past, nor necessarily control my future…
All I can do is my best, and work towards a better me. A better life for myself, and those that I care about who are close to me…
I chose to write this morning as I had a visitor last night. An old friend. A friend who knows me well, supports me in the tough times, and truly wishes the best for me…
I am lucky to have this friend.
Anyway, we talked about life, the choices we make, the impact we have on others. I have had a lot of these conversations lately…
We also spoke about passions. My passions. The things that make me want to jump out of bed and get to work…
Writing was one of them….
So here I sit. It is 5:11 am. In front of my computer. My fingers dancing along the keyboard. The click click of the keys is the only sound in the home…
It is so peaceful.
I am able to have a conversation. Perhaps with myself. Perhaps with God…
Certainly with you, the reader…
And it feels so good.
I used to write a lot. Almost every day, I would wake, sit in front of my computer, and type away my thoughts, first thing in the morning…
It was a good habit. A great habit. A habit that filled my soul. Made my heart shine…
Allowed me to share my thoughts in a private way, but really not so private at all…
And it felt so good.
I let myself get away from writing over the last two years. It wasn’t just writing. It was living healthy. Working towards a better me. Waking with goals. Hopes. Dreams…
I vow to change that. Today I am taking a small step forward, and writing my thoughts…
And it feels so good.
I have a world of life experiences with which to draw on. Experiences I enjoy sharing with my readers….
I have been rich. I have been broke...
I have been the MVP of my cross country team. I also have been fat and out of shape on the couch with a beer in my hand…
I have been so madly in love, that my heart was ready to explode. I also have felt the pain of a break up that crushes both my spirit and will to move forward…
I have been very down. The type of down where dark thoughts have entered my mind. Very dark thoughts…
But there always has been one constant…
I have risen. Gotten off the floor. Dusted off myself and moved forward. Turned things around and made progress with myself. For myself…
Sometimes my progress is barely perceptible. That is ok. Sometimes progress works that way…
I believe in small steps. Those little steps done over time can make all the difference in the world…
And today, I woke wanting to take one of those steps…
So, encouraged last night by a friend, I woke with a desire to write. A desire to share my feelings…
To bare my soul again. Feeding my spirit. Working towards a better me. Taking that step forward…
And today, I am moving forward with hope. With optimism. With goals and dreams…
For today is a new day…
Ken
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