I woke this morning early. Too early…
The clock on my phone read 4:40 am as I grabbed it to replay a meditation audio I had been listening to earlier in the night…
I have listened to a lot of audios over the last month…
Guided meditations. Sleep hypnosis. Positive affirmations. And all have been very helpful at various times to bring a sense of calm over me…
But this morning the audio wasn’t working. That happens some times…
I was having a difficult time listening to the words that the male voice on the audio was saying…
The words were the same. The man’s voice was calm and spoken with the same tone…
But again, I struggled to focus. To absorb the words that were being spoken…
Again, that happens some times. And it is ok…
I have learned over the years that my thoughts I am having today are just that. Thoughts…
And those thoughts that seem so frightening at one moment in time do not define me. They are not who I am…
My thoughts are just synapses in my brain firing at different tempos than at the other times…
More peaceful times. More joyous times…
I have learned a lot over the last month. And I have put that knowledge to good use…
One thing I have learned is that I love writing. It makes me feel good…
So when I started feeling anxious, I realized it was time for me to do something about it. Something that I know works. Something that gives me the joy and peace we all search for…
So I grabbed my computer and started typing. I had no plan. No great story to tell. Really no idea what I was going to write…
Yet here I am. Perhaps half of one of my little posts is finished. It took less than 10 minutes, and I am feeling calmer already…
Because I took action. I have a recognized a pattern in my life and in my thoughts, and I have developed a remedy to snap out of that pattern…
The ability to have some control over ones thoughts is liberating. Powerful. Healing…
For years I had struggled. I was like a leaf on a windy day, being blown around to and fro. Feeling helpless about the direction of my thoughts, and therefore the direction of my day, and sometimes my life…
But again, I have found a way to take back that power. Actually, several ways…
I remember years ago, sitting at breakfast with my father, talking to him about a difficult time…
“Keep moving forward,” he said to me. It sounded so simple at the time. Perhaps I didn’t yet grasp the power of those words?
But I have taken it to heart, and followed his advice. I move forward with purpose each and every day…
Yes, some days are harder than others. On those days, the clouds in the sky seem a little bit darker. Some days the sky doesn’t seem so blue…
But I have seen, that over time, that the clouds aren’t really that scary. And the clear sky is, more often than not, a beautiful color of blue…
And today, as I wrap up my thoughts on my computer, the anxiety I felt just 20 minutes earlier is now gone….
I have a busy day today. And it will be a good day…
And I hope you have an awesome day as well!!
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